Tread softly because you tread on my dreams. - W.B. Yeats
*makes animated gestures and mouth inaudible long words*
*roll eyes to back of the head and make choking sound*
My Nose and Throat are swelling up and extremely SORE.
There’s an irritating itch at the top back of my mouth, windpipe and in the ears.
All of which I can’t reach because it’s er… Inside.
Feeling terribly miserably miserable. *whimpers*
The words you spoke would always make me feel the same.
The words you wrote would always fill me with anticipation.
The words you didn’t say would always remain the space between us.
Dear friend, Is this Goodbye?
Dad, it’s been 100 days since you left us.
Though we’ve all learnt to tuck our pains away and smile again,
we all still miss you… your smiles, your suppers and your jokes.
I love you dad, you’re the reason I stay strong and hold the fort.
Coz my wardrobe’s coming, I am painting 1 of the wall in my room today.
The one that you and Dydy drew my favourite swirly pattern on…
Except that the huge ass swirly mural is really out of shape,
and white and yellow sticks out like a sore thumb on my lavender wall.
Your favourite worker is coming by soon, he says it’s not easy to paint,
so he’ll come by when he’s off, to help me paint the rest of the room.
He’s been such a darling and we’ve got all their things settled *relief*
Dad, I wish you are here with us…
Than I won’t have to do this whole thing myself and instead
coerced you into it with my giggles & Please-daddy-please Smile.
I miss you dad. I’m so afraid that time will make my memories of you fade…
After intense packing, I have to admit I really was a disgusting Shopaholic.
Not only do I have Brand New Zara/ Mango/ Topshop clothes, some even with tags.
I found this in my wardrobe bought gazillion years ago and forgotten….
uber uber LOUD Leopard print dress I bought for nearly $200. *face palm*
But never found the right opportunity to wear it as it’s so grand and luxe.
It is a scarf dress with a very thin & elastic waist band that fits all sizes S - L.
I still fits me now, but my fat arms would take all the attention from the print.
I don’t even know how much I want to sell this, so seriously… I’m open to neg.
I swear NEVER again to buy clothes for pre-empt-make-belief occasions.
So many f-ing Will-wear-when-I-lose-weight-or-when-there’s-a-_____ Clothes!!!
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[Add ons…]
Cute right? I saw it online, bought all the materials & made my mom make it.
I also have a ridiculous no. of blue/pink/white baby romper for new born to 18mth.
Don’t even ask. I know like.. What the fuck right? Long story. hahaha
Please spread the word to help contribute to my Holiday Shopping Funds! 
As usual was whining on my FB page when the sweetest thing came through…
Somewhere there’s someone who dreams of your smile,
and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile.
So, when you are lonely remember it’s true:
somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.
Mai tu liao!!! CAN ASK THAT SOMEONE TO FASTERLY COME?!
I figured if I were to put everything aside first while I’m packing,
I would procrastinate and forget about selling it eventually.
So here goes… bits and pieces of things in my room as I go along…
(If you are seriously interested, please feel free to drop me an email with queries.
I can take higher res pic and give you exact dimensions. Now very lazy & busy.)
Bunny suit - Fur tail behind too!
The girlies @ D&D Event
I have 3 slightly different cutting for the dress as they are made-to-measure,
but they all fit only ladies with dress size S. Waist 24 - 26.5.
Tube dress + Bunny ears + collar + cuffs. Full set at $100.
(MODELS NOT INCLUDED! hahaha)
Anyway, it’s perfect for dress up parties, D&D, halloween etc.
Almost Brand New! Only wore for an hour by the models for this event.
EMAIL ME AT: ceo@sassyjan.com
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[Adding on along the course of the night…]
This was one of my favourite dress. I love it to bits!!!
It still somewhat fits lah… But my arm is now horrendously out of shape, so yea…
It’s from Forever 21. Sized M. Bought this for probably something betw $58 - $78.
I really can’t recall coz I was quite a shopaholic last time so hard to keep track.
If interested just drop me an email and name me your best price yea?
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I love this top so so so damn much coz it’s so flattering, I bought it in 2 colors.
This one you see is black & white, have another in very light yellow and brown.
I wore the white piece ONCE. And never got down to wearing the yellow one.
It’s from Astriel. Sized L. But it’s sooooo NOT L lor.
Top of the tube measures 14.5″ across, stretchable to 17″
Here a pic of me in it…
Hahahaha. Sorry lah. No proper photo. But I call this the bowling pin top.
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[More to come…]
There has been request for my birthday wish list (I *Heart* you all!!),
but I really haven’t gotten down to writing it yet coz time had been rather tight.
So please hold it for awhile as I need time to think what I *cough* need.
But PLEASE!! no matter, no matter what, NO clothes or shoes or perfume.
I have very specific likes and dislikes and peculiar preferance, so yea…
If in doubt, stick to vouchers or Ang Pao (Need Shopping Funds!!). Haha
(I still have all 5 bottles of perfumes given to me 2 birthdays ago. *peng san*)
Sometime back, I was at Orchard Central’s Urban Write when I saw a Tong Kong,
absolutely adorable with ‘Shoe Funds’ adorning the exterior of the tin.
AHHH!!!! Made my heart go POM POM TIAO CAN!!!
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[Will update here along the way…]
• BB BOLD 2!!!
• Campo Marzio Macbook Air Sleeve from Cityluxe
• Vertical Steamer (Small & Slim Design)
• 100 Identical slim design clothes hanger with shoulder catch
• Essensuals Hair/ The Ultimate Spa/ Leonard Drake/ PINC/ Kinokuniya Vouchers
• Air tickets to Shanghai (I want to go to World Expo!)
• Black chandelier room light
• Oven
I am officially ‘moving into’ my home. Albeit a good 3.5 years late.
The boxes that I first dumped in my room then, is still… well… in boxes.
The luggages and bags and BAGS of clothes from my ex’s place is still… where it is.
Tomorrow was suppose to be our anniversary, so yea… this Clean out is pretty timely.
On top of that, Chinese New Year is coming & my new wardrobe is coming next week.
So it is aptly timed for me to start clearing up this space and make it feel like home.
My usually very irritating brother very kindly loan me his room to ’store’ while I clear.
Not wanting to mess up his usually extremely emptily clean room,
I decided to only move some of my shoes over as it is less er… *cough* intrusive…
He was grimacing in ‘pain’ when he left the house and there was only half of this…
I wonder if he’s gonna flip when he comes home later to this. :/
Er… I had to stop this pile coz I’m not tall enough to go any further.
Pretty amazed at some of my favourite shoes that was stashed away all forgotten.
And then the many that haven’t been worn nor loved for various reasons.
I am planning to sell off some brand new and lightly worn shoes at dirt cheap price,
(some are bought coz sale, or online thus size didn’t fit or shoes from past events)
one reason is to clear up space for new stash and another is to fund my holiday.
So… do watch this space and spread some love for me.
I’ll be getting started on clothes soon and… you girlies are gonna love it!
Meanwhile, will update on interesting/funny snippets of Clean-up discoveries. 
