Hey there!
It’s been a crazy week. Had quite a few mischap.
One of which, is dropping my Powerbook from my bed,
causing my hard disk drive to go crazy and eventually die.
I’m blogging from my Blackberry now just to keep this space updated,
but my thumb is abit sore from daily BB, so can’t write a long post.
Recently, I learnt a lot about friendships and relationships between people.
And all I can say is, it really doesn’t matter what other people do or say,
as long as deep down inside I know I have treated the person right.
My constant reminder is conscience and having God in my heart.
The word ‘friendship’ have been cheapened and abused by many.
I’m just glad Jassy, Jeff, Barf, I still have you all to call friends.
The help through my darker times, the understanding when I’m busy,
and mostly the joy we have together throughout these few years.
And all the real people around me I’ve met and love,
I’m so glad we still make efforts to meet, have lunch or dinner,
Just to catch up and be a part of each other’s life.
Many times, I think of you all and I don’t feel so alone anymore.
Very often, it’s meeting the bad stuffs that remind me of the good.
How fortunate I am having you all to call friends.
Even those that have lost touched throughout the years,
Yes, I remember you all and miss the joys we had too.
You who used to pick me up from Poly, or meet Holland to drink,
or head out for movies or just hang out.
You who defended me from gossipers who made up stories abt me.
And you, you who don’t have a Hp and we always meet up at coffee shops,
Especially the one at sixth avenue for cheap crabs.
Also you who got chocolates for me when I was down.
And you who always come by with chocolixir at my events.
Then there’s you too, who shared your life stories heal my wounds.
And you, you and you who left a footstep in my life.
I love you all, and I hope our friendships lasts forever 
It’s a sad gloomy day when even the howling can’t seem to blow my woes away.
I’m awfully tired and nursing the greatgrandfathermother of all headaches.
And my crazy hormones is giving me crazy break outs and… diarrhea.
But you know what?
It’s all gonna be good.
Because tomorrow I’ll tell God to sort this all out.
Meanwhile, it’s time for bed.
I’ll update this space tomorrow with the photos of my trip last week. 
I like falling.
It shows me the ugly and teaches me lessons.
I thrive in abuse.
It whips me up into becoming a stronger person.
I love it when people think I can’t.
Because I can.
I don’t need cheap help with empty words.
As even in my darkest hour, the flame burns strong from within.
I will hold my hand and walk this route I’ve chose.
And no I will not just walk it, but I will run it.
I will come out Top.
Because I would let nothing get in the way of my dreams.
While my family spent our weekend in Cameron Highland to celebrate Father’s Day,
my brother called us on Sunday afternoon with terrible news:
His NS Campmate has been confirmed of contracting the H1N1 virus.
My bro has a 38.3ºc fever & an ambulance had sent him to Alexandra Hosp.
He was admitted Sunday 1400-hr. He would know results by Monday 0300.
We came back to Singapore at Midnight.
I stayed up till 0300 waiting and waiting for the news but none came in.
At 0730, after being unable to contact my brother, I called the hospital’s main line:
My brother has been suspected of contracting the H1N1 virus.
Results was said to be out by 0300 but still no news as of yet.
I can’t contact my brother, can we know the results so we can go to work.
I was transfered to admission hotline, and after repeating the same story the 2nd time,
I was transfered to his ward, and after repeating the same story the 3rd time,
I was tranferred to another nurse, and after repeating the 4th time:
AH: SGH is the one who said the results would be ready Monday 0300.
AH: There is still no news yet and we have chased them for the results.
Me: So what happens now? No one has given us any information.
Me: If I were to go to work now, and later in the day his result is positive,
Me: would everyone I have came into contact with be quarantined?
AH: Have you came into close contact with the patient?
Me: I saw him briefly on Friday. We live in the same house but we don’t interact.
AH: This virus is air-borne, so if he is positive you will still be quarantined.
AH: Then we would do contact tracing for ppl you came into contact with.
Me: So when would we know his results?
AH: We cannot confirm yet.
Me: Yesterday it is said 3am, now you say cannot confirm?
Me: So are we to wait indefinitely in the house for the results?
Me: Look! No information has been given to us at all.
Me: I am trying to be responsible here and asking you what we should do.
Me: Should I go on with my life since the hospital had not advised anything?
Me: Or can I know when the results would be out so I can inform my office?
AH: We really cannot confirm a time because SGH is the one who gave us 3am.
AH: If we give you another time, and there’s still nothing you will call us again…
Me: So exactly how long would this take? 2 Days? 3 Days?!
AH: Oh.. It shouldn’t take more than 1 day.
Me: So am I right to say I should stay in today and wait for the results?
AH: Yes.
Me: Okay. I would take leave from work today
I practically had to force them to commit to saying that I should self-quarantine.
Zero information was given to us since my 20-yr old brother was admitted.
In fact we were not informed at all & only knew when my bro sms us of the situation.
We were not at all advised, what we should or should not do and the repercussions.
It is now Monday 0900, and I am practising self-quarantine.
Sudden craving for ShenZhen’s 5RMB/SGD$1 (小辣，不要醋）酸辣粉!
*rubs liddle belly & licks lips*
Finally re-united with shaggy bear… *hugs*
Little bits of bliss…
I’ve learnt that hurdles eventually becomes lessons.
And every obstacle just pushes me to live life stronger.
I just want to work towards my idealistic dreams and aspirations.
And my dream now…
is to fill up this space again.
Rushing a lot of Proposals for various clients.
Just closed a small deal today, so am Happy.
Somehow big job’s results are usually not so immediate,
and takes out a million more time than little jobs.
Want to be kick ass busy. Because Busy = Business = $$$ = GOOD!
So drop me a email or call anytime if you require event management services,
conceptualisation, creatives for Ads/campaigns and Talent Management! 
for this Very old Accordion Player I saw at a Topshop event earlier this year.
I do not have his picture, but he’s a very old and quaint looking man,
which is so quaint he fitted in so perfectly into the Alice in Wonderland theme.
Please help me ask around?
xoxo,
Jan
It’s gonna be a busy(ier) start of the month,
so this space would be a little slower in its update.
Would try to post random shots with captions whenever I can.
Meanwhile, check out 2 of my fav sites: Jak & Jil and The Sartorialist.
P.s I am alternating between diarrhea and gastric pains, so really, No good. 
